Bosan............

Aku bosan. Menyepi dan menghilangkan diri dengan kerje.. hati rindu dan x pernah pudar tp da tau xkn dpt kmbali. someone help me pls.......

Leona Lewis - Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word

Sorry Seems to be the Hardest Word
Original by Elton John

What have I got to do, to make you love me, 
What have I got to do, to make you care.
What do I do, when lightning strikes me, 
And I wake to find that you're, not there.

What do I got to do, to make you want me, 
What have I got to do to be heard.
What do I say, when it's all over, baby, 
Sorry, seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad, 
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad, 
Why can't we talk it over.
Oh it seems to me, 
Sorry seems to be... , the hardest word.

What do I got to do, to make you want me, 
What have I got to do, to be heard.
And what do I do say when it's all over, baby, 
Sorry, seems to be the hardest word.

Hey... , 
It's sad, so sad, 
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd... 
It's sad, so sad, 
Why can't we talk it over.

Oh it seems to me, 
Sorry seems to be... 
The hardest word... 
Baby, the hardest word..

Aktif Kembali

Salam semua. Hahaha da agak lama blog aku ni bersawang.. Bukan stakat sawang biasa2... Tp da jd umah hantu kot.. Rasanya byk da yg aku promise korg tp x dtepatikan.. So bila aku baca blk post2 yg sblm ini, byk da citer2 tggal fragment jer. Nak citer pn mcm x guna dah..

Apapn story nk aku bawa kali ni.. Kalo korg ingt la.. Pasal pasangan idop aku. Kapel walau mcm ragam pn ttp gak brtahan cuma bila aku pk blk semua tu.. Nampak sgt aku yg bodo..

By month of feb 2012 aku dinasihatkan brenti keje pasal sbb2 yg xdpt aku nyatakn di sini. But trus trang aku bgtau, sbbnya adalah disebabkn oleh si dia.

Aku sacrifice macam2 utk org yg aku syg dan aku xpikir panjang pn. Masa memula aku bgtau pasal kes ni.. Dia amat concern. Aku mmg happy sgt sbb dia blh trima keadaan aku waktu tu..siap janji akan sehidup semati smpai bila2.. Alhamdulillah.. So selama sthn aku mash brhubung dgn dia walaupn aku x bekerja.. Minta kerja mcm2 da tp smua x dpt. Lgpn aku tau kes aku dnasihatkn brenti tu xstop mcm tu jer..

So slama xkje aku tlg mak bpk aku tp byk masa aku memerap dlm blk... Memikirkn masa dpn.. Slalu gk la gaduh ngn dia pasal msg.. Mash ulang benda yg sama pasal wish morning n ucp gdnite..
Kdg2 aku xpaham bz ape nyer sampai bgun pg xingt nk msg aku lgsg. Logic x kalo bgun2 xtgok phone lgsg. Tros mndi g kelas.. Da ptg br ada masa msg?

Ok abaikan kes yg tu. Nak dijadikan citer, aku kna pggl utk soal siasat kes aku ujung bln 3.2013 dan akhirnya aku kna tahan reman. Mrasa la msk pnjara dan alhamdulillah bln 5.2013 sudah mak aku tlg ikat jamin. Masa dlm pnjara tu aku curi2 tpn dia tp aku da rasa laen mcm sbb mcm acuh x acuh jer. Ok la brbalik kes aku dah bebas. Aku msg dia tp trasa mcm ada something. Smpai la aku trgerak hati tanya.

Dan dia bgtau aku yg dia da kapel laen. Aku cuma dia anggap sbg abg jer.. Alasan dia bg, dia sunyi dan bdak tu bg dia smgt dan harapan.. Well of xourse la kan, sbb aku dlm masalah besar cmni (dlm penjara) mmg xblh nk msg dia slalu.

Lg alasan dia nak aku berubah dgar ckp mak bapa aku dan cr org yg sesuai dgn khendak parent. Lama gak aku sembang ngn dia.. Aku panik sbnarnya..

Next kol aku bgtau yg aku xblh trima knyataan dia kapel laen. Aku bgtau yg semua ni aku buat sbb dia. Aku sacrifice masa dpn aku kot. Dan dia bgtau xblh ubah keputusan sbb dia da syg kt sorg lg. Hahaha mcm sialz je aku rasa. Sbb kami kenal almost 4 years tp kalah dgn rasa syg dia kt bdak yg br kenal masa aku dlm tahanan reman dua bulan.

Bullshit.. Aku sedar skrg. Tiada cinta sbnar di hati. Nmpk sgt amk kesempatan atas aku kn.. Aku xsalahkn dia sbb ini adalah kebodohan aku sendri. Apapn aku doakan agar kamu temui kebahagian yg aku da caci dan sumpah ini. Kalo dpt la kan. Mmg aku marah kot.

Biar pn msh lg msg yg bg aku mcm xmsg.. Tp tawar da hati ni nk mulakn msg. Aku ada ckp klo dia ingt.. Msg jer.. Klo x.. Abaikn jer.. Mmg la payah nk lepaskn tp aku xnk lemas mcmni.. Xtau la bila dia swoh aku cr laen, agak2 aku sama ke mcm dia yg senang2 tukar baju baru bila da lusuh? Aku pn asal susah, dan aku jaga dia sbb dia pn ank org susah.. Tp bila dia pk nk senang jer.. Xnk susah sama2.. Bg aku dia hipokrit..

Next post lagu yg btol2 kna ngn situasi skrg...

MOVES LIKE JAGGER by Maroon 5 featuring Christina Aguilera

MOVES LIKE JAGGER by Maroon 5 ft. Christina Aguilera

Oh
Just Shoot for the stars
If it feels right
Then aim for my heart
if you feel like
and take me away
make it okay
i swear i'll behave
you wanted control
so we waited
i put on a show
now i make it
you say i'm a kid
my ego is big
i don't give S#!t
and it goes like this
take me by the tongue
and i'll know you
kiss me till you're drunk
an i'll show you
ant the moves like jagger
i've got the moves like jagger
i've got the moves like jagger
Move like jagger
i don't need to try
to control you
look into my eyes
and i'll own you
whit them moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
moves like jagger
maybe it's hard
when you feel like
you're broken and scarred
nothing feels right
but when you're whit me
i'll make you believe
that i've got the key
oh, so get in the car
we can ride it
wherever you want
get inside it
and you want to steer
but i'm shifting gears
i'll take it from here
an it goes like this
take me by the tongue
and i'll know you
kiss me til you're drunk
and i'll show you
all the move like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
moves like jagger
i don't nedd to try
to control you
look into my eyes
and i'll own you
whit them moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
moves like jagger

you wanna know
how to make me smile
take control
own just for the night
and if i share my secret
you're gonna have to
keep it
nobody else can see this
so watch and learn
u won't show you twice
head to toe
ooooh baby rub me right
but if i share my secret
you're gonna have to
keep it
nobody else can see this

an it goes like this
take me by the tongue
and i'll know you
kiss me til you're drunk
and i'll show you
all the move like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
moves like jagger

i don't nedd to try
to control you
look into my eyes
and i'll own you
whit them moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
i've got moves like jagger
moves like jagger

Entry dated 19 June 2011

Salam.. agak lama aku x update blog ngan citer2 life aku.. so post kali ni aku simpulkan ape yg trjadi dr last entry pasal: Unworthy Me. 

mmg kitorg gaduh perang besar pasal kes ni.. sbb tu aku xsuke nk check bukumuka dya.. tp kalo aku x comment plak.. dya marah.. byk kali dya terangkn kt aku yg tu saje dya post sbb nk tgok budak AD ni nk masuk jarum x kt dya.. (aku pk: What The Hell!! ko testing dya sbb pe? kalo dya nk kt ko.. ko On ke?) tp sbb aku taw aku ni da matang so aku kna r brfikir scara waras.. yes aku xnk kerohkn lg suasana.. aku mmg xnk khlangan dya.. so skrg ni kitorg brbaek blk..

nothing special or misery happen btwn us until last 2 days.. dugaan.. dugaan.. huk huk...

hurm.. last thursday dia kna join camping utk 3 hari.. start ptg khmis tu sampai hari sbtu... dya ckp r nanti rindu bla bla bla etc etc etc sbb xkan dpt msg.. pesan bagai nk rak kt aku jgn nakal2.. jaga dri elok2.. yes aku suke sbb dya concern aku tp kalo da byk kali ckp.. mcm x percaya pown ada kan? but still aku senyap lagi.. well kna r phm kalo bercinta ngan org yg muda dr kita.. btol x?

so nak dijadikan crite,walaupon nama camping tp mlm dya blk hostel tdor.. so da dkt nk tdor dlm pkol 12+ br kitorg msg.. xbleh lama pown sbb pg aku nk kna kerje kan... aku plak da xtaw nk wat pe.. slalu msg bagai nk rak.. so jmt tu aku bli tket layan citer X-men.. sbt mlm plak aku layan green lantern ngan super 8.. ape yg aku buat smer aku cter kt dya.. dan aku siap ckp lagi.. tgok sorg2.. xkuar ngan spe2 pon.. bkn pe krg byk lk nk kna tnya... walaupon aku tgk wayag.. tp bla dya msg aku xksah.. aku blas je.. walau pown tgh concentrate tgk wayang.. sbb pe? sbb aku syg sgt kt dya.. biar aku berkorban janji dya happy.. tu niat aku..

so criter dya start sbtu tu.. time aku nk layan for next movie.. ops sblm tu.. sbtu tu dya hbes awal.. pkol 4-5 ptg camtu dia da hbes program.. so kitorg msg mcm biasa r.. pastu ntah dlm msg tu dya citer ader budak blk laen .. yag dya x knal masuk smbg ngan dya.. ckp nk berkawan r.. tup tup tangan tros sentuh2 pegang2 dya.. hangen gler aku dgr.. rase nk je aku g sana cr bdk tu pastu lanyak bg mampos.. tp dya ckp da tepis pastu kuar dr blik.. xpe lagi.. kitorg still msg cam biasa n tba2 dia msg "Kol jap".. seyes aku da mula pk mesti ader yg x kna.. pehal lak.. sbb kalo xde mslh blh je smbg msg cam biasa..

so aku kol r dya.. (flashback kejap: dlu aku pnh ckp kt dya.. kalo kt umah aku xnk kol sbb line CELCOM kt cni macam gampang.. kejap dgr kajp x.. kejap ok.. kejap putus2) aku sbb risaw so kol r gak walaupown line kt umah x elok.. ko taw ape yg dya nk ckp? dya ckp krg dya nk kuar ngan kawan dya.. dlm hati aku da mmg da terbakar gak r.. aku dok pk bdk yg sentuh2 dya tu wat setan or jahat kt dya.. mcm xblh je smbg msg cam biasa kan? still aku cool.. pastu aku x ingt ape yg kitorg sembangkan tp byk kali gak ar..line cam sial.. kejap2 helo helo.. kejap2 ape dya? masing2 x dgr.. aku ckp xpe ar.. n wat ayat penamat bualan yg mcm biasa kitorg lakukan.. tup tup line ptos..

dya msg aku nape off? pastu aku ckp r xpe r.. g r kuar ngan member tu.. sbb time tu aku da nk bersiap2 kuar.. start ayat aku yg mcm sial tu la kitorg gaduh lagi.. dya tnya knapa mcm marah jerk.. mmg aku tgh marah tp bkn ngan dya.. tp ngan line CELCOM yg sial tu.. aku xreply sbb da dlm kete nk grak kuar.. aku pk nanti aku smpai kt tmpt line clear br r nk kol... x sampai 4minit camtu dya msg blek.. ayat dya da lupe.. tp mcm ayat majuk r.. aku yg tgh drive tros r kol dya.. aku ckp pehal.. aku xmarah.. blh x tg sampai aku smpai dlu.. sbb aku tgh drive.. aku xsdr time tu suara aku da tinggi.. sentap gak r dya.. ko bygkn aku tgh drive cilok2 kete tngn sblh pegang stereng sblh lgi on the phone.. aku x phm padahal dya da pesan kalo drive jgn maen msg or kol, tp tup tup dya on jerk ngan aku.. tp apa pown time tu kitorg da ok blek.. aku smpai kt dstinasi ppown kitorg still lagi on kol.. aku siap ckp da smpai tg aku dpt parking dlu br aku msg.. n ayat pnamat dya amat lah berjela dan berulang2.. "jgn nakal2", "Take cre", "saya syg abg".. sampai aku trpaksa ckp.. blh x tg aku cr parking dlu.. time tu aku da mmg menggelegak sbb aku da nyaris2 nk langgar kete org.. mslahnye krg kalo aku letakphone dya melenting.. nk xnk kna tg gak dya letak dlu.. (sbt pasal ni.. kitrg pnh gaduh pasal aku letak phone.. but that another stry)

da dpt parking.. aku gegas g cinema sbb masuk pkol 9.30. aku ada 15 minit jerk lagi.. da smpai sana aku tros bli hotdog wat mkn mlm aku.. masuk panggung n aku msg dya.. da ok da smer..

...... korg aku ngatok dah ni.. bsok smbg ea.. panjang lagi ni.. huhu....

to be continued..

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NEED YOU NOW by Lady Antabellum

Picture perfect memories
Scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause
I can't fight it anymore

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey
Can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping
In the way you did before

And I wonder if I
Ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one
I'm a little drunk
And I need you now
Said I wouldn't call
But I've lost all control
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now

Whoa, whoa
Guess I'd rather hurt
Than feel nothing at all

It's a quarter after one
I'm all alone
And I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call
But I'm a little drunk
And I need you now

And I don't know how
I can do without
I just need you now
I just need you now

Oh baby, I need you now

When n where.. Forever

WHENEVER WHEREVER by Shakira


We could both make fun of distance
Luck that I love a foreign land for
The lucky fact of your existance

Baby I would climb the Andes solely
To count the freckles on your body
Never could imagine there were only
Ten Million ways to love somebody

Le do le le le le, Le do le le le le
Can't you see
I'm at your feet

Whenever, wherever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and you'll be near
And that's the deal my dear

Thereover, hereunder
You'll never have to wonder
We can always play by ear
But that's the deal my dear

Lucky that my lips not only mumble
They spill kisses like a fountain
Lucky that my breasts are small and humble
So you don't confuse them with mountains
Lucky I have strong legs like my mother
To run for cover when I need it
And these two eyes that for no other
The day you leave will cry a river

Le do le le le le, Le do le le le le
Can't you see
I'm at your feet

Whenever, wherever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and you'll be near
And that's the deal my dear

Thereover, hereunder
You'll never have to wonder
We can always play by ear
But that's the deal my dear

Le do le le le le, Le do le le le le
Think out loud
Say it again

Le do le le le le
Tell me one more time
That you'll live
Lost in my eyes

Whenever, wherever
We're meant to be together
I'll be there and you'll be near
And that's the deal my dear

Thereover, hereunder
You've got me head over heals
There's nothing left to fear
If you really feel the way I feel
Shakira Whenever, Wherever